LPN

My friend Callie took her NCLEX on Wednesday the 28th. She didn't seem very nervous. I saw her the day before. He hair hadn't been washed in a few days, but her spirit was the same as usual. EXCEPT. She did snap at me at work. I just tried to blow it off. I knew she could tell what she said bothered me, but no big deal. I will just take what she said in consideration and be different. She called me when she was done. Said it took her two hrs. (Which she never takess that long on a test) and she had 85 questions. I gave her all my positive thoughts, and told her anything I could, to bring her relief.
I saw her yesterday at work. She was quiet, cleaning the floor. we sat for a minute and chatted and she said she has been a bit snappy at her mom and BF. She hasn't heard her results on the test and it was driving her nuts. I reassured her to be positive. She is amazing. The knowledge she knows and the ability to apply what she has learned is what I hope I can do.

Late last night she txt me and said SHE PASSED.. CALLIE ANN CARTER...LPN!!!
Oh the excitment I felt for her and feel is overwheling. Being on this journey with her has been a roller-coaster ride. During school I hardly saw her. But look what has paid off. A little sacrifice from friends and from herself and dreams came true.

One day. One day, she will share my excitment with me.. I can't wait!!!

Chaos

OMG!!

Life has gotten in the middle of my thoughts. I still have them but there just isn't time to write about them.

Work at the hospital has been a challenge.TO SAY THE LEAST> Just when you think your doing great, and under the radar of your boss, she pulls you into the office and says you need to be more assertive with your patients. In my defense, I care about the health of my patients. I think that rest is important because they've been through a lot. But apparently the hospital is not where you come to rest, it's where you come to get better...So Assertive I've become.
I still work at Mountain Ridge, my home. 111 passsed away Christmas Eve, and let me tell you, next to my gramps dying, it was one of the hardest days for me. His family were so generous with letting me spend time with him. A harpest came in and played. One of the most beautiful things I have ever heard and experienced.

It's time to turn on my application for nursing AGAIN! My hopes are HIGH. Like if I don't get in I will cry for a week. I have heard so many rumors that if you make it as an alternate then you'll get in the next semester.. I HATE rumors.

I've had some issues knowing who I am and what I stand for. Let me tell ya, I am getting myself back on track. No more! My family is number 1. When I get into school things will change. I will be relying on those around me the most to care for my little ones but till then, all about them!

I will be back more often, I need to write. I feel so much better.

Kindergarden

Katie started Kindergarden today...

What an exciting day for dea and I. Both of us were able to take her this morning. She said to me that she was excited to go but she didn't want to leave me all day.
She was so dang cute, with her back pack that was oversized compared to her. She held her daddy's hand as we walked to the patio where her class was. Dea went inside with her, where her teacher Mrs. Ashby, showed her where to hang her back pack then she came running outside to me and gave me a big squeeze, "Mommy, I love you."

Okay now my eyes starting watering.

This is a hard day for me because I have no more first day of kindergarden coming. She is it. Now it's on to graduations and other firsts for me kids, which btw I'm ready for, I'm just not ready to start saying goodbye.

I know many won't understand what I'm saying but my future is in my children. Watching them grow up into fine human beings that will rule this land. ha ha ha.

When Life Becomes a Roller Coaster?

When life becomes a roller coaster, climb into the front seat, throw your arms in the air, and enjoy the ride!
Life is full of ups and downs. If your're anything like me, more than once you've prayed to God to take away some of the low spots.
If I had only realized that the experience I was trying to avoid was actually a life-altering opportunity that shaped me into the woman I am today, I would have yelled, "Hit me with your best shot!"
Knowing this after the fact didn't make it any easier, but looking back I realize I am much better now for having endured it. Besides, I'd never have realized how high I have gotten without the perspective of how low I had actually been.
The real lesson to be learned is that we need to face our challenges head-on with grace, style and conviction.

So next time your life starts to resemble a roller coaster, climb into the front seat, throw your arms into the air, and enjoy the ride!

Kids

The kids are starting another year of school. I am such a proud mom.
Jeff is starting his junior year. Gosh I can still remember his first day of kindergarden...He was at a school on Base at Edwards. On his first day of school he was standing in line and he bit the ear of the boy standing in front of him. HAHAHAH...Wow now he he still that same silly boy, just in a more manly body. He is going to take college credit coarses as well. My heart rejoices to think how proud of him I am.

Destiney is beginning her freshman year. I really hope she can turn things around for herself and feel good about who she is again, I want her to gleam the way I have seen her. When she sings and dances she lights up. I can't help but stare at her. My eyes get watery. Her light is shining, I just NEED her to see it for herself.

Brandon, Madie, and Katie are wonderful. Brandon will start 7th grade, Madie 2nd grade and Katie Kindergarden. I'm nervous for Brandon. What if it's too much for him and and her gives up? I need him to not let down on himself. I need him to know he can do it...cause I know he can do it!
Madie, what am I gonna do if she talkes all the time.lord she will be just like Des.
Kate...this is it..my last one is going to her first year of school. Words cannot express my thoughts and feelings....but know the future is great, because my kids are our future!!!

Update:

This has been such a crazy week!
The hospital was full of orientation days. The first was for the hospital, where this and that is. Second, clinals orientation. This pertained more to me and the day went but much faster. Third, my actual floor orientation, which there was soo much info to take in by the end of that day I had a real headache. Then lastly, I finally got to train on the floor on Thursday. I worked a 12 hr shift and I have to say it was nice knowing already how to do the job of a CNA. At Mountain Ridge I went in and had no clue. My praises again to my old friend Mountain Ridge, for teaching and making me the Aide I am today.

So Thursday on the floor, I learned more on the charting system,( I mention this because I have total anxiety about it) I learned what we do when a new admit come in from post op. I learned how to discharge and clean the room up. I took and IV out (WAY COOL). and in the 12 hrs I worked I sat down maybe 20 min. I went home and was asleep at 8pm and slept till 930 the next morning.
I can't wait to go back on Monday. My goal is to try not to be the leader. I have a hard time with this. See at the hospital, you report to the nurse everything. At Mountain Ridge I was the one who received the reports. I WILL one day be the nurse so I can do this and work only what is in my scope of practice. HEHE (sounds so official).

I can do this, this is what I am suppose to be doing. And I am so thankful that I am finally here.
Thank you to my family and friends who have been on this journey with me!

"Hissie Fit"

Never underestimate the power of a "Hissie Fit"

Life is all about give and take. But some issues cannot be compromised. When the situation calls for drastic and dramatic measures, you have to draw a line in the sand, climb up on a soapbox, and protect the hill you are willing to die on.

It's not easy...anything worth fighting for never is. But the most noble thing you can do is stand up for what is right, no matter what the cost.

The problem is your voice can drown amid the roar of the masses. Once in a while you have to stomp your feet, scream at the top of your lungs, and throw a few lightening bolts to be heard.

Never underestimate the power of a "Hissie Fit."

Mountain Ridge

Welp, this is basically my last week working for Mountain Ridge.
Such bitter sweet...

I am looking forward to the next chapter, but this chapter will never be closed for me. MR is where I've learned to be humble, accountable, achieve, and strive.

My residents speak for themselves, they are so wonderful. I can tell you who most everyone is, where they live and what their routine is. I love the feeling of knowing I can make a person feel secure, just by being confident in myself in the job I know how to do.

MR is about the people I work with...The staff is full of many personalities, and no I havent gotten along with everybody, but there are days I can't wait to go to work. The people I work with are exceptional individuals...

The people I work for, is a powerful team... They continue to support us each day. They are there for the staff, ready to jump in and help at anytime, no matter what their title. The director of most of us aides has personally come in and been an aide on the floor, a med tech, a sounding board and a friend any time we need her. Our exectutive director will help serve in the kitchen if their short handed. And our nurse is always willing to answer those questions that I have just forgotten because I'm not a nursing student yet. She allows me to interrupt her anytime, never making me feel like her time is too good.

I love MR. I need to go and experience new things and that's what I'm doing but I can see myself making a home there.

Thank you Mountain Ridge for making a great CNA out of me! Coulda never done it without cha!

Contains Personal Content

Ok, So I am going to put myself out there for you to read, my family, my friends, and whoever.

I cannot be affraid of what you may read may hurt you because that is never my intention. But I have feelings too, and I like to write about things. Good, bad, or indifferent.

If you read my blog, please consider that you are just getting to know me. Who I am, and things I feel and think. I'm intitled.

So again, love me for me...
I am who I am!
K thanks bye

July Fever

OMG!!!
I know I havent blogged in months...sorry for all my non-readers, but I actually didn't want to complain. So many ups and downs. I just needed to deal on my own.

But let me tell you now...

My Mom found a job and is looking to her future. Jeff finished 10th grade with honors and starting his junior year he sill take 12 credits of college and attend high school. I told him that if he graduates with good grades for high school and his associates of general education, I will pay for him to go on a school cruise. I will pay for everything, including play money. He went to Washington for 3 weeks and got paid for his work with Aunt Elaine, I let him buy Selena Gomez concert tickets. He is so excited.
Destiney has been doing great since school got out. I feel like all the pressure is off of both of us. She is at her dads and dealing with a few anxiets there.

So my big news...I got a job at McKay Dee Hospital...working Joint and Spine. Let me yell out...I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!

Next...I received another letter reguarding my application into the Nursing Program at DATC...
Dear Susan,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted into our practial Nursing program as an alternate candidate........OMG..How much can I take?

My dreams are coming true, Jehovah is still holding my hand!

Thanks for all who stand by me and love me and support me and most of all...encouarage me, build me up and stand by me as I climb my way to the top of MY ladder...

Pregnancy Fever

Anyone who truely knows me, knows I sometimes get the fever...Pregnancy fever.

And I have it again.

Now listen, before you go thinking something mean, my dog is pregnant, my boss is pregnant, and two of my close friends are pregnant, and one person from work just had a baby this past Friday, a girl. Her name is Sophia.

I feel left out, anxious, jealous, I feel that I am missing out on the joy of it. I hate being envious of others...ugh.

My hubby had his tubes tied 5 years ago, so there is no chance. and really my life is not set up for an infant. My mother in law has always said she saw us with 6 kids, but hell I never even saw myself with 5 kids.
When I was 19 and had Jeff I knew I was screwed. I knew that being pregnant waa going to be an inner battle of mine, I knew if I didn't work in Labor and Delivery that I would have more kids than I knew what to do with...But I still love it.

I'm tired og being made fun of because I make friends with every pregnant person I know. The joy I experience in the delivery room is as exciting for me as it is for the parents...and face it people, I'm damn good at being a labor coach, I know a lot too.

I've thought about being a doula but I needed more, hence being a nurse. I need to be in a hospital, I need to help moms bring healthy babies in this world.

I wish Dea would grant me the wish to be a surragate for just one couple. It's not about the money, I have always wanted to do that for somebody. I have a friend who didn't conceive for years, adopted 6 kids. Then one day her and her husband decided to give it a go. She tried insemination 3 times. She got pregnant all 3 times.
The first time she miscarried.
Second time, the baby was born at 21 weeks and 6 days gestation.. Her name is Isabel Susan, she weighed 13 oz. and was 9 3/4 inches long. She had beautiful black hair like her mama, She cried, pooped, slept, showed her criver lip, and died all in 3 hours.
The 3rd time gave us her son, who is my god-son. He is the most precious being on this earth aside from my own children.
My friend inspires me to be a surragate.

I hope the next 9 months goes by super fast...

Assoicaiate of General Studies

I am so frustraated with school.
Today I went and met with my advisor to get signed off for my associates of health science. But day before yesterday I looked at my Cat Tracks and it said I still needed 3 more classes. WTH? No one told me this at all and if this was the case why wasn't I told.
So now I have to forego my associates of health science and get my associates of general studies. I have worked sooo hard for the past two years, why in general studies? I should be happy and I guess I kinda am but I'm not very excited. I do feel relieved that at least I have something to show for what I've been doing for two years straight with only 10 day breaks, but yet disappointment urkes in the background.

If I get my degree in gen ed then that gives my two points for the nursing program, if I apply early and re-take anatomy I will make it into the alternate pool. HEY, AT LEAST ITS A POOL!

If you WANT Rainbows...You gotta have Rain

In a perfect world, everything would always go right. There would be no disappointments or trials, and life would be filled with only sweet, warm, and fuzzy feelings.

But how would we know if things were good if we had no comparison?
Would we recongnize the blessings in our lives without having the opposite to compasre them to?
Without the darkness, would we appreciate the light?

Seems to me if we want rainbows, we gotta have rain. The trick is to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and go out and look for puddles to play in, reconginze the temptest for what it is and train ourselves to look for the good in every situation. By overcoming our adversity, we find the joy in everything.

So go on, go play in the rain. :)

Mom Update

So Mom has been here for 10 days.

How has it been, you may ask? Well not bad actually. I haven't been feeling anything that gets on my nerves, which is a horrible way of stating it. I expect her to eat. I expect to have to buy her cigerettes, I expect her to sleep when there is somewhere I need to go and she doesn't want to.

I paid for her to get her hair done one Monday, and she like it but seemed more concerned with what could she do to earn Pepsi and smokes. That kinda bugs.

Today I wanted to take her to fill out applications, instead she said she stayed up till 1:30 in the morning and didn't feel well. What can I do? So a couple of things are coming up but nothing I can't work through.

Des is gone till Saturday to my dad's and I have super jealousy issues with that.

Mom did go to Kingdom Hall with me on Tuesday, she had some questions before we left, for example. why do we call God Jehovah? Great question and actually very basic. I tried to answer it for her the best I could. Then we go to meeting and during one of the brothers talks she gets my attention and tells me that shes a bit freaked out because the brother was answering her questions. And she was loud too.
I told her anybody there was capable of studying with her.

Jehovah has my back, I can feel him keeping me calm and level headed.

Chances

So my Mom is coming today.
A lot has happened when it concerns her. She wasn't going to come here till April 1st but she has warn out her welcome at the place she is staying. Not because she did anything hut the extra person puts added burden on this family...completely understandable.

I am so nervous. To open my life up to her sets me up for hurt, frustration, downfall. I have NO illusions that I can change her but I want to GIVE her the opportunity to change.
Chances are SOOO rarely given; I have been given may chances by my husband. She honestly has only ONE chance.

When my mom is around I have constant bad dreams, we argue over my kids, she eats all my food. but I need to move on from my childhood. I need closure like you can't imagine.

She will be going to Kingdom Hall with me. She will have 2 weeks to sleep and get used to the Utah weather and elevation. She understands that I am the mom and she is the grandma. She is not allowed to snack all day and night long. She will have an open door policy is she needs or wants anything.

Pray for me...Pray my family forgives me and yet supports me.
Pray this decision doesn't come in between Dea and I.
Pray I get a medal....lol

Big Decision

So today I made a HUGE decision...I'm going to let my Mom come stay with me for a bit.

It's not for 3 weeks and you never know what will happen in 3 weeks but for now, this is my dicision.

I've tried calling my brother but he hasn't called me back...kinda frustrating. Although I know he's going through some stuff too.

My mom has warn out her welcome where she is...It's not her fault, the people she is staying with just didn't know how long she would be staying. Apparently their gas got shut off a week ago. Maybe I should pay it and call that helping with the costs of her stay.

I don't know.

I'm nervous.
Nervous for myself, my family, my sanity.
Maybe this will bring change.

But I will not hold my my breath, change is hard...For ALL of us!!

We regret to inform you

Sorry I haven't been here in a bit.I have been so busy. If it's not work it's school, or family, or sleep. I haven't even talked to anybody on the telephone.
Which I feel bad about because my dad and I had this super awesome conversation about a month ago and we haven't really talked since. And my sis Kim. We used to talk everyday, if we didn't talk, we sent each other a txt saying hi, but the other day I txt her and she replies shortly saying she was stressed. All I could wonder is what did I do.

Well yesterday I got my letter from Weber State University...
Dear Susan,
The Weber State University School of Nursing Admissions regrets to inform you...Blah blah blah...

I didn't get in... I didn't even expect the letter yet which makes it even worse. I thought it was in regard to a ticket they keep hounding me about, NOT. I didn't really have my hopes up and I don't know anyone who has got in but on the same note it's still disappointing.

Onward and Upward I say... What else can I do...

On a lighter note. The other night we had a few friends over and boss from work came and a few friends from work too. We had a BLAST!!! I can't wait to get together again. In fact my boss, (which at some point I hope to quit referring to her as "MY BOSS" and just my friend Andrea) invited me and the family to Jerico Dunes this weekend. I don't think we can go though cause the trailer needs some a fixin. Maybe next time.

Well readers have a great day...

Snowboarding

So yesterday I went snowboarding for the final time as far as my class is concerned.

WOW...I have learned so much.

Except yesterday when I went, I enjoyed myself the most. Dea and I just hung out together. I put my earphones in and tried new things.

I still can't do toe side at ALL, but I am willing to practice.

I even feel that I can go with friends and hold my own.

I do want to point out that every time I go snowboarding I seem to start my damn period. HELLO. Mother nature is NOT funny!!

My Friend

My friend, my Soul Mate

You and I, my friend, are two hearts traveling in the same direction. We have one of those rare connections that gives us such a beautiful relationship. So often you know my thoughts before I say them or sence what I need before I ask. Surely God's inifinite plan has out you in my path...and selected you to be in my friend!

Today, Your are Hugged!

Today consider yourself hugged!!!

Today, I'm wrapping my arms around you with my heart.
I want you to know I am so happy that you are a part of my life!

My Angel

An angel has blessed my life with you.

The blessings of an angel come in many ways. Sometimes these gifts are right before us, and it is only through time that we realize just how blessed we are. You are always there to share a laugh, and you are always ready to tell me "everything will be okay" when I'm down. I have come to appreciate these simple blessings, and I want to thank you for being an angel in my life.

Friends are FOREVER

We have shared so much through the years...

Each time I see you, I am reminded of how special our friendshio is. It doesn't seem to matter how long it has been between visits, as we pick up right where we left off. We have shared so much through the years...our hopes, our dreams, our joys, and our struggles.

Thank you for being a part of my life!

Fun Facts

1. I hate dirt on baseboards, yet when I'm cleaning I forget to scrub them.

2. No matter how exhausted I am, I never go right to sleep, I have to watch TV.

3. I yell when the house is in disarray. Completely stresses me out!

4. I am an overachiever, a 'B' will NEVER be okay with me.

5. I have to follow the rules. If a teacher says no cell phone, I will not have my cell phone out.

6. I am VERY cranky the week before my period, and everyone knows why :)

7. I'm scared Destiney will end up pregnant at a young age.

8. I only drink Arrowhead water in a bottle at room temperature.

9. I hate being cold, I have a blanket everywhere I sit and if I'm in the car I take one as well.

10. I scrapbook, but I haven't done it for two years. Since I've been in school.

Trust Your CRAZY Ideas

Some ideas sound logical right from the start. The wheel and fire were obviously great concepts from the get-go.

But I wonder who first watched lay an egg and said, "Hey, let's eat that". YUCK! That was probably met with some skepticism. At the time, no on had visions of fluffy chiffon's, lofty meringues, yummy omelets, or delicate souffles',

New ideas encounter criticism and opposition. But remember, all great ideas started in somebody's basement with one man or woman with a vision, The key is to believe in yourself and persevere.

So trust your crazy ideas.
They could change the world!

Katie

Katie cracks me up!!

She still takes a shower with me cause #1, she doesn't have a tub, and #2 I can make sure she is properly washed.

Katie pays special attention to detail. In the shower I notice her little twirks more. She has to arrange the shampoo and soap just so. Kinda OCD if you ask me.

Another thing, there is a moment of my shower when I just stand there, letting the water rush over my body. As I turn to the side, my arms crossed, water fills my hand and runs down my body. Well, Katie has noticed the water and now she puts her hand on my side and catches the water. Even if she is distracted with the soap bottles she watches for me to do this.

I know this may sound a bit weird, but to me as the Mom, I think it's neat.

Family

I know sometimes we get mad at our family. We feel that we will never talk to that person again when we are enraged by their actions.

This is going on all around me.

My dad states that he won't ever speak to my cousin again and now my Aunt and Uncle proclaim they are done with my Mom. The thing is, none of thesee people are gonna just disappear from reality. What I mean is the bond that ties these people cannot be erased.
When we get mad at people there are people we can erase, but they are the people who have no blood ties. I know I am not making sense but the extreme is happening around me.
What do I do.
How can I comfort those who are lost and wondering.

I have to stay focused on what's in front of me at that very second. When I'm at work, it's work stuff. When I'm at home, it's family time and the same for school. When my dad calls I am about what my dad needs.

Jehovah...Don't let go.
Amen

Time

Time has made light of my situation once again.

Maybe even Jehovah had his hand in making me feel better. On Thursday I couldn't take it anymore...I knelt down by my bed and prayed. I cried I told him everything like I was I telling someone for the first time. Since then...I have felt so much better. I wasn't praying for help, or asking for anything, I simply gave it over to him. Jesus says his load is light..So I gave my load up! :)

My mom is getting out of the hospital today. I am full of worry and concern.
The other day a friend put it to me in lamens terms...it's too bad I have to be a mother to my mom.. He was right. But I got this. I will not fall for any tricks or lies. I know them all anyways.

I am enjoying this semester of school. It is weird not studying so hard and thinking my grade has to be an A. I am just taking it easy I guess you would say.

Guilt

Why is it possible to bare guilt of others?
Why do I feel so responsible for choices my mom has made?

I found something out from one of her test and I told Dea. He told me I should not be the only one who bares the truth so I told my Aunt. My Aunt is so upset. I do not blame her. The thing is, my mom is really sick. Stress will not let her heal.

My mom just got out of ICU yesterday but when I spoke to her a little bit ago she said she's getting another transfusion and she doesn't feel well. All kind of thoughts are running through my mind...

Dea is upset that I feel guilt. I even vented to my dad, which I really wished he DIDN'T do. I feel I have a reason for why I do what I do, I'm just not sure yet what reason is yet.

Update on mom

What a wild ride I have been on these past couple of days...but I want off.

My mom is being moves out of ICU today. I'm glad but some other worries are coming up.

I told you there was something else that I am holding off on telling you, this secret is huge and has affecting many individuals. Mainly my grandfather in which whom my mom lives with. My Aunt has called it quits with her. She said that she no longer has a sister and I need to deal with my mom from here on out.

I can't focus. I really need to get my home work done, yet I'm blogging and reading other blogs.

Tonight Brandon has a talk, so hopefully Jehovah will comfort me in the way he knows how. I need him!!

Worry

Yesterday I got a call that my mom is in the hospital. She is the ICU. On a ventilator, sedated, and without me and my brother.

This picture is last year. Me, my brother, my mom and my brother's kids. What if we never take this picture again?

I am at a loss of what to do. I don't know if I should go to Vegas or not. I feel this incredible need to be with her yet I have chaos of my own.

My brother is a mess. distraught, not sure what to do either.

And I am next of kin. I am the only person authorized to make any decisions regarding her care.

I talked to my dad last night. He didn't mention my mom's situation. But it was a good conversation. I can see him trying again and letting go of some things that have been bothering him. If my mom passes away, my dad is not the one I can turn to for comfort. All I have is Dea..

I have to go to work...although my mind is still filled with worry and doubt.

More to come.

Day 2 of Snowboarding

So snowboarding wasn't so bad...I guess.
I still don't have the hang of it. I went and purchased new boots which were a huge help but I still felt some burn.
I finally figured out how to turn my body to go another direction but I am extreme;y sore from the cable that takes you up the mountain for the bunny run. I pulled my arm muscle tendon and yesterday I took tons of medicine. Even a muscle relaxer...which I NEVER take.

I can't wait to get to the point that when a friend asks if I want to go boarding, I won't chicken out. :)

Today I have work. Very thankful to be working 2-10. Morning shift is quite chaotic. Although I'm not sure if my body is thankful.

I have a bit of drama with my family right now, my grandpa's funeral is February 5th. But not ready to talk about it. I just want us to be there for each other. :)

Snowboarding Lesson #1

So today I went snowboarding for this first time in my life.

It was a beautiful day, sun was screaming and the snow was glistening! PERFECT!

So I walk into the room he gives me my pass and I proceed back out to my car to gear up. Boots, gloves, hat, goggles, the works. Then I walk to the pole that says
"Never Been Ever", Yep that's my pole. The instructor for the skiers is chatting with me for a bit. After a while, and I mean a long while, I realize I need to sit down. I had been standing WAY too long. Wow!
Finally progress, we move to the groups we're supposed to be in.

My instructor Tammy is way nice. She tells us about the board, all the mechanics of it, how to put my foot in, everything. Then she says something that appears to be in another language cause I am suppose to try to slide with my board on one foot. WHAT? How the heck do you do that? Apparently I am the ONLY one never been before because everybody else got what she was talking about. lol

So I'm doing my thing, left foot buckled, right foot freely on the board for some reason and down I go. I'm screaming...AHHHHHHHHH.....But nope, no fall for me. hehe

I can't get this, my ankles are killing me and I felt as if I was working WAY to hard. So I talked to my instructor, we decide to put my bindings tricky so I can boars both regular and goofy. Goofy means my right foot is forward.

So I go down the mountain digging my heels into the snow, not wanting to let go of Tammy. I get back up the mountain somehow, let's try the cable pulley...

OUCH..and OMG, ...and WHAT THE HELL....and THERE GOES MY HIP....
needless to say I didn't "catch" on the first time.

Another guy came and helped me out, even gave me a little boost and explained to me what exactly I should be doing. Thank goodness!!!!

So hear I am taking a bit of a breather and I explain that my ankle is moving a lot in my boot, my ankles are burning, and the boot is just digging into my calf. I told my instructor I wear an 8.5 and my boots are 9.5, she was not happy. And neither am I cause my boots are a complete size too big and the store won't take em back. crap!

At least I know what I can fix so Lesson #2 won't be so horrible!!

Spring 2011

I am not in the mood to do difficult school work right now. I was thinking of re-taking Anatomy but I got into the class, which by the way was overloaded and the teacher was very vocal, to say the least. I kept asking myself...Is this what I really want to go through again. I have taken Anatomy, Physiology, Chemistry, and Pathophysiology for the past two years and I'm tired of woring so dang hard...

So I dropped Anatomy, I am now just taking Into to film, the last part of TBE and desperately trying to get into History. Oh I forgot, I'm taking SNOWBOARDING!!!!

I am super excited about snowboarding. At first I was taking it so maybe I can socialize with others but it has become something I've just wanted to do myself. I don't like the cold weather very much and I can do away with snow but I figure if I'm gonna live here I might as well make the best of it. I have everything I need. New board, new boost, bindings, hats gloves, cold weather gear, snow pants, jacket...ALL READY...,
Now I just need to make it to the mountain. hehe