Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Guilt

Why is it possible to bare guilt of others?
Why do I feel so responsible for choices my mom has made?

I found something out from one of her test and I told Dea. He told me I should not be the only one who bares the truth so I told my Aunt. My Aunt is so upset. I do not blame her. The thing is, my mom is really sick. Stress will not let her heal.

My mom just got out of ICU yesterday but when I spoke to her a little bit ago she said she's getting another transfusion and she doesn't feel well. All kind of thoughts are running through my mind...

Dea is upset that I feel guilt. I even vented to my dad, which I really wished he DIDN'T do. I feel I have a reason for why I do what I do, I'm just not sure yet what reason is yet.

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