Sinking in

It's amazing how sleep helps you focus.Yesterday was such a whirl wind of a day for me.1st-orientation2nd-pay tuition and buy books (ouch)3rd- go home and try to organize4th-get called into work and drop everything!5th-get kids off to school before I even attempt to lay down6th- finally...SleepI woke up and the kids were home from school, I was so exciterd to hear all about their first day. Katie started 1st grade. Madie 3rd grade. Brandon 8th grade. Destiney 10th grade, and finally Jeff is a SENIOR. (officially)Amazingly I don't have very much paperwork to sign.. hmmI thought a lot last night,(in between all the crying babyies in the nursery, and being split between patients on both 100 and 200 side) I cried a few times to some friends with caring ears. But today I feel GREAT. I don't have to wait very long to start school. My anticipation is turning into excitment. My fear is turning into a positive attitude that I'm gonna kick butt in school. What's really given me the most peace is, I decided to work only on-call, NOT part-time. Destiney reaction to me starting school on Monday made me realize that there is NO WAY IN HELL that I can do all this and be a good MOM. I pride myself in beign a mom. Destiney said she felt I was abandoning her. My heart broke. Soo.. I'm going to sacrifice work for my kids. I just pray that what time I have spent on the floor has made a good enough impression to make a difference, and in the end I will get an RN job on my dream floor. I will continue to finish some weekend shifts until 9/15 but after that I will work one shift every other week. My hubby is the best and wants to help me to concentrate on school, and do the best I can do. Raising 5 kids and nursing school should be interesting, and I'm sure you will hear of my failures here, but I have a great support team around me. To think that DECEMBER 2013 I will be... Susan Thayn, RN. (:

So it begins

I got the call today... The call that said "Hey Susan, It's Becky. I haven't talked to you in like a week, so I thought I'd call". lol " Hey Becky", ( in the back of mind I secretely do not have my hopes up that she is going to tell me I'm in for August)"So Susan, are you still interested in starting in August cause your next on the list"? (The alternate list) " Becky, are you kidding me"? "Susan, school starts MONDAY!!!!!" My mom was in my room, and the second I hung up the phone I had no words. My mom and I cried...and hugged...and cried more. How can such a phone change your life? How can one phone call make you dizzy, send chills through your body, make you sweat, and heart palpatations all at once? All my thoughts are overwheling... where do I begin? What do I need? So I call my girl Callie and instantly I'm calm. No worries tonight, I'll worry after orientation tomorrow. Tonight, celebration with my kids and my mom. And a Costco run...LOL

Now what?

Have you ever sat at home, and really wanted to go to do something but all your suggestions are lame? Ugh. I want to go shopping and a movie, but dang I want to just rest... UGH.. So frustrating. I have so much to do now that Dea is home, but he is only home till Saturday, and I work the rest of the week. The kids start school on the 22nd, and I have so much to do to get them ready. I wish I had just one more adult that I could turn to and shout for help. On the lighter side of things, today Callie sold me a few books and her WSU nursing student scrub top. Time is passing so slowly for January to get here but I'm just going to take it day by day. What else can I do? We just got back from our trip on the houseboat... I need something... but what?