PN 1 Semester

Today was the last day of this semester. I took my fundamentals final and really felt horrible about it, turns out I did better on it than I did on Lifespan. I passed this semester with 2 A's and a B+. I feel so damn relieved. Today has been emotional. I kept to myself. I didn't want to share my score or talk about someone else's test. The stress is overwhelming, and to try to make another person feel better doesn't help me to feel better so I just kept quiet. I don't want to be compared to you. Yes I am happy for you but being a nurse is about me.
Next semester I am going to study a lot more. I don't want to feel then like I do now. I want the confidence, and I don't believe it's healthy to doubt yourself all of the time.
Listen I have dreamed of this for forever, and I did it... I made it through my first semester of nursing school. GO ME!!

Death, Dying, Depression, and Suicide

Not the best title for my post but this is what I got to listen to for 7 hours on my very last day of actual class today. I'm sad, and thinking about personal stuff in my life that I really try to squish down most of the time. I realized today that this subject is so important in nursing. Most individuals think of healing people and helping people to get better but what about the latter? I really don't have a problem with death, but with that being said, it's hard for me to comfort others who are the family members. Death is sad and tragic and sucks. But I can't say that out loud. On a lighter note, today was my last day of actual class of my first LPN year. How surreal is that??? IT'S AMAZING, that's how it is. I feel incredibly blessed to be where I am. I can't wait for it to be January. Because when I say I'll be a nurse in May, and have my RN in Dec, it will that much closer. I'm living the dream, REALLY, I AM!!!