When I say roller coaster ride... I mean the last two day have been CRAZY!!
Yesterday There was a shooting right here in the town I live in. Officers were serving a warrent. Confidentality of my job, I will not say much. I will say that the officer that past away was my very good friend, Lauren, her cousin. She was in the ER all night. This officer was shot 3 times. The situation didn't really hit home till I spoke to Lauren. Lauren, my prayers are with you. I'm so sorry.
My dad worked for the Sherriff's department when I was a little girl. I have vivid memories of him getting a call, he would pack his bags, not knowing when he would return. and I would just cry. "Daddy don't leave". He tells me how I tore his heart out everytime he left. What if my dad never came home after a horrible night? What if we never had "WHAT IF'S"?
Second, ride I've been on, I applied for a job in maternity. You've read my posts. My DREAM! Well I got an interview. 28 candidates. I can't believe I'm talking about it, but I'm so excited. I only had a phone interview, 2 questions. and all about confilct. I know confict in the work place is common but why interview me about it? I called my girl Callie, Of coarse. She said it souds like I did good. We'll see. Did I mention it's in SLC. :( I had no idea. What a dumb-butt
Friday, January 6, 2012
Saturday, December 31, 2011
LPN
My friend Callie took her NCLEX on Wednesday the 28th. She didn't seem very nervous. I saw her the day before. He hair hadn't been washed in a few days, but her spirit was the same as usual. EXCEPT. She did snap at me at work. I just tried to blow it off. I knew she could tell what she said bothered me, but no big deal. I will just take what she said in consideration and be different. She called me when she was done. Said it took her two hrs. (Which she never takess that long on a test) and she had 85 questions. I gave her all my positive thoughts, and told her anything I could, to bring her relief.
I saw her yesterday at work. She was quiet, cleaning the floor. we sat for a minute and chatted and she said she has been a bit snappy at her mom and BF. She hasn't heard her results on the test and it was driving her nuts. I reassured her to be positive. She is amazing. The knowledge she knows and the ability to apply what she has learned is what I hope I can do.
Late last night she txt me and said SHE PASSED.. CALLIE ANN CARTER...LPN!!!
Oh the excitment I felt for her and feel is overwheling. Being on this journey with her has been a roller-coaster ride. During school I hardly saw her. But look what has paid off. A little sacrifice from friends and from herself and dreams came true.
One day. One day, she will share my excitment with me.. I can't wait!!!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Chaos
OMG!!
Life has gotten in the middle of my thoughts. I still have them but there just isn't time to write about them.
Work at the hospital has been a challenge.TO SAY THE LEAST> Just when you think your doing great, and under the radar of your boss, she pulls you into the office and says you need to be more assertive with your patients. In my defense, I care about the health of my patients. I think that rest is important because they've been through a lot. But apparently the hospital is not where you come to rest, it's where you come to get better...So Assertive I've become.
I still work at Mountain Ridge, my home. 111 passsed away Christmas Eve, and let me tell you, next to my gramps dying, it was one of the hardest days for me. His family were so generous with letting me spend time with him. A harpest came in and played. One of the most beautiful things I have ever heard and experienced.
It's time to turn on my application for nursing AGAIN! My hopes are HIGH. Like if I don't get in I will cry for a week. I have heard so many rumors that if you make it as an alternate then you'll get in the next semester.. I HATE rumors.
I've had some issues knowing who I am and what I stand for. Let me tell ya, I am getting myself back on track. No more! My family is number 1. When I get into school things will change. I will be relying on those around me the most to care for my little ones but till then, all about them!
I will be back more often, I need to write. I feel so much better.
Life has gotten in the middle of my thoughts. I still have them but there just isn't time to write about them.
Work at the hospital has been a challenge.TO SAY THE LEAST> Just when you think your doing great, and under the radar of your boss, she pulls you into the office and says you need to be more assertive with your patients. In my defense, I care about the health of my patients. I think that rest is important because they've been through a lot. But apparently the hospital is not where you come to rest, it's where you come to get better...So Assertive I've become.
I still work at Mountain Ridge, my home. 111 passsed away Christmas Eve, and let me tell you, next to my gramps dying, it was one of the hardest days for me. His family were so generous with letting me spend time with him. A harpest came in and played. One of the most beautiful things I have ever heard and experienced.
It's time to turn on my application for nursing AGAIN! My hopes are HIGH. Like if I don't get in I will cry for a week. I have heard so many rumors that if you make it as an alternate then you'll get in the next semester.. I HATE rumors.
I've had some issues knowing who I am and what I stand for. Let me tell ya, I am getting myself back on track. No more! My family is number 1. When I get into school things will change. I will be relying on those around me the most to care for my little ones but till then, all about them!
I will be back more often, I need to write. I feel so much better.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Kindergarden
Katie started Kindergarden today...
What an exciting day for dea and I. Both of us were able to take her this morning. She said to me that she was excited to go but she didn't want to leave me all day.
She was so dang cute, with her back pack that was oversized compared to her. She held her daddy's hand as we walked to the patio where her class was. Dea went inside with her, where her teacher Mrs. Ashby, showed her where to hang her back pack then she came running outside to me and gave me a big squeeze, "Mommy, I love you."
Okay now my eyes starting watering.
This is a hard day for me because I have no more first day of kindergarden coming. She is it. Now it's on to graduations and other firsts for me kids, which btw I'm ready for, I'm just not ready to start saying goodbye.
I know many won't understand what I'm saying but my future is in my children. Watching them grow up into fine human beings that will rule this land. ha ha ha.
What an exciting day for dea and I. Both of us were able to take her this morning. She said to me that she was excited to go but she didn't want to leave me all day.
She was so dang cute, with her back pack that was oversized compared to her. She held her daddy's hand as we walked to the patio where her class was. Dea went inside with her, where her teacher Mrs. Ashby, showed her where to hang her back pack then she came running outside to me and gave me a big squeeze, "Mommy, I love you."
Okay now my eyes starting watering.
This is a hard day for me because I have no more first day of kindergarden coming. She is it. Now it's on to graduations and other firsts for me kids, which btw I'm ready for, I'm just not ready to start saying goodbye.
I know many won't understand what I'm saying but my future is in my children. Watching them grow up into fine human beings that will rule this land. ha ha ha.
Friday, August 26, 2011
When Life Becomes a Roller Coaster?
When life becomes a roller coaster, climb into the front seat, throw your arms in the air, and enjoy the ride!
Life is full of ups and downs. If your're anything like me, more than once you've prayed to God to take away some of the low spots.
If I had only realized that the experience I was trying to avoid was actually a life-altering opportunity that shaped me into the woman I am today, I would have yelled, "Hit me with your best shot!"
Knowing this after the fact didn't make it any easier, but looking back I realize I am much better now for having endured it. Besides, I'd never have realized how high I have gotten without the perspective of how low I had actually been.
The real lesson to be learned is that we need to face our challenges head-on with grace, style and conviction.
So next time your life starts to resemble a roller coaster, climb into the front seat, throw your arms into the air, and enjoy the ride!
Life is full of ups and downs. If your're anything like me, more than once you've prayed to God to take away some of the low spots.
If I had only realized that the experience I was trying to avoid was actually a life-altering opportunity that shaped me into the woman I am today, I would have yelled, "Hit me with your best shot!"
Knowing this after the fact didn't make it any easier, but looking back I realize I am much better now for having endured it. Besides, I'd never have realized how high I have gotten without the perspective of how low I had actually been.
The real lesson to be learned is that we need to face our challenges head-on with grace, style and conviction.
So next time your life starts to resemble a roller coaster, climb into the front seat, throw your arms into the air, and enjoy the ride!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Kids
The kids are starting another year of school. I am such a proud mom.
Jeff is starting his junior year. Gosh I can still remember his first day of kindergarden...He was at a school on Base at Edwards. On his first day of school he was standing in line and he bit the ear of the boy standing in front of him. HAHAHAH...Wow now he he still that same silly boy, just in a more manly body. He is going to take college credit coarses as well. My heart rejoices to think how proud of him I am.
Destiney is beginning her freshman year. I really hope she can turn things around for herself and feel good about who she is again, I want her to gleam the way I have seen her. When she sings and dances she lights up. I can't help but stare at her. My eyes get watery. Her light is shining, I just NEED her to see it for herself.
Brandon, Madie, and Katie are wonderful. Brandon will start 7th grade, Madie 2nd grade and Katie Kindergarden. I'm nervous for Brandon. What if it's too much for him and and her gives up? I need him to not let down on himself. I need him to know he can do it...cause I know he can do it!
Madie, what am I gonna do if she talkes all the time.lord she will be just like Des.
Kate...this is it..my last one is going to her first year of school. Words cannot express my thoughts and feelings....but know the future is great, because my kids are our future!!!
Jeff is starting his junior year. Gosh I can still remember his first day of kindergarden...He was at a school on Base at Edwards. On his first day of school he was standing in line and he bit the ear of the boy standing in front of him. HAHAHAH...Wow now he he still that same silly boy, just in a more manly body. He is going to take college credit coarses as well. My heart rejoices to think how proud of him I am.
Destiney is beginning her freshman year. I really hope she can turn things around for herself and feel good about who she is again, I want her to gleam the way I have seen her. When she sings and dances she lights up. I can't help but stare at her. My eyes get watery. Her light is shining, I just NEED her to see it for herself.
Brandon, Madie, and Katie are wonderful. Brandon will start 7th grade, Madie 2nd grade and Katie Kindergarden. I'm nervous for Brandon. What if it's too much for him and and her gives up? I need him to not let down on himself. I need him to know he can do it...cause I know he can do it!
Madie, what am I gonna do if she talkes all the time.lord she will be just like Des.
Kate...this is it..my last one is going to her first year of school. Words cannot express my thoughts and feelings....but know the future is great, because my kids are our future!!!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Update:
This has been such a crazy week!
The hospital was full of orientation days. The first was for the hospital, where this and that is. Second, clinals orientation. This pertained more to me and the day went but much faster. Third, my actual floor orientation, which there was soo much info to take in by the end of that day I had a real headache. Then lastly, I finally got to train on the floor on Thursday. I worked a 12 hr shift and I have to say it was nice knowing already how to do the job of a CNA. At Mountain Ridge I went in and had no clue. My praises again to my old friend Mountain Ridge, for teaching and making me the Aide I am today.
So Thursday on the floor, I learned more on the charting system,( I mention this because I have total anxiety about it) I learned what we do when a new admit come in from post op. I learned how to discharge and clean the room up. I took and IV out (WAY COOL). and in the 12 hrs I worked I sat down maybe 20 min. I went home and was asleep at 8pm and slept till 930 the next morning.
I can't wait to go back on Monday. My goal is to try not to be the leader. I have a hard time with this. See at the hospital, you report to the nurse everything. At Mountain Ridge I was the one who received the reports. I WILL one day be the nurse so I can do this and work only what is in my scope of practice. HEHE (sounds so official).
I can do this, this is what I am suppose to be doing. And I am so thankful that I am finally here.
Thank you to my family and friends who have been on this journey with me!
The hospital was full of orientation days. The first was for the hospital, where this and that is. Second, clinals orientation. This pertained more to me and the day went but much faster. Third, my actual floor orientation, which there was soo much info to take in by the end of that day I had a real headache. Then lastly, I finally got to train on the floor on Thursday. I worked a 12 hr shift and I have to say it was nice knowing already how to do the job of a CNA. At Mountain Ridge I went in and had no clue. My praises again to my old friend Mountain Ridge, for teaching and making me the Aide I am today.
So Thursday on the floor, I learned more on the charting system,( I mention this because I have total anxiety about it) I learned what we do when a new admit come in from post op. I learned how to discharge and clean the room up. I took and IV out (WAY COOL). and in the 12 hrs I worked I sat down maybe 20 min. I went home and was asleep at 8pm and slept till 930 the next morning.
I can't wait to go back on Monday. My goal is to try not to be the leader. I have a hard time with this. See at the hospital, you report to the nurse everything. At Mountain Ridge I was the one who received the reports. I WILL one day be the nurse so I can do this and work only what is in my scope of practice. HEHE (sounds so official).
I can do this, this is what I am suppose to be doing. And I am so thankful that I am finally here.
Thank you to my family and friends who have been on this journey with me!
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