2 Weeks left of RN1

It has been a crazy, crazy semester, and none of it has been easy. I had my clinicles at IMC and Davis Hospital. IMC was fabulous. I met some great nurses and enjoy my time there, not to mention Beth and I carpooled and that meant "girl time". Then I had to go to Davis, and honestly I was nervous. I was pretty sure that my Instructor Nancy HATED me. I accidentally asked her why she was immature on a paper we hand in weekly. In my defense, I wasn't REALLY trying to make such a statement, but ask a question pertaining to chronic drug users. But it turns out that Nancy didn't hold a grudge against me and my last day is tomorrow. ... I can't believe my last day is tomorrow for clinicals,next  adventure is a couple of Psych rotations and the PRECEPTING!!!!! Hallelujah!! You have no idea how my heart skips a beat thinking about being this close to completing nursing school. 

I have struggled this semester with my Med/Surge class. I had to miss a day for Jeff's graduation, and boy did that screw me. On that test I missed the most I've ever missed on a test and was puton academic   contract. Scared the crap out of me. I was told that the worst case scenario would be to re-do Med/Surge to include clinicles. Are you kidding me!! NO WAY! Worse was when she said I would not go on in August and I would have to re-start in January and go another 2 semesters!!!! At this point, I'm terrified. I have to get my act together and pull through. I must have talked to Marijo 4 times on the phone and we drove to Lava to study with Camille. Turned out to be one of the best weekends ever, I took my test last Monday and freakin nailed it, 90! BOO YAH! Then today we had another test... 99! WHAT!!! Best feeling ever. 

The next hurdle is Monday, the last Med/Surge test of the semester and I want to go into the final with a passing grade. I deserve this. I want this more that anyone else! And I can't imagine gong through nursing school without my class. 

Now on to life update, Jeff got a job working at Mountain Ridge, they love him. He is reliable and willing to help and learn. Des is at her dad's for 3 weeks, which I think is good cause we both needed a break. She's trying to exercise her independence while I'm still trying to hold on, normal stuff. Dea got a second job. And I am scheduled to get an abdominoplasty (i.e. Tummy Tuck) August 8th. Pretty dang excited for that. Things are getting better. I feel good too. It's nice for a change to be happy. :)

Nursing school blues

The last 10 months have been such a journey. Up's and down's the the extreme of insanity. Last week was a down, bombed a test, 2 IV's infiltrated, Dea was disappointed with his birthday, no going to Wendover with Beth, fight with Dea, anxious, irritated, and drowning. Did I mention sleep deprived.. Cause yes that's one too! I just am ready to be done. I'm ready to feel and be a confident woman again, not who I am now. I don't want to be her anymore. My in-laws are staying with us and I can't visit with them until Wednesday night cause that's when I'll have a couple of hours to spare, but then I think maybe I don't cause on Thursday I have to work a 12 hour shift and will LOOSE 12 hours to study for this HUGE cardiac test on Monday, that quite frankly I CANNOT afford to fail. Yes this is my thoughts, they suck!. On a positive note Emma Faye was born on friday, she looks like her sissy. Chloe is going to be the best big sister ever. I can't wait till I get to have the time to visit... and cuddle that sweet baby. I haven't loaded my blog with any crap about false impressions of nursing school, for me this is how it is, but at the end of the day I am still so very thankful to be here, and to be able to call myself a nurse. I am an LPN, I've made it this far. With the support and encouragement of some amazing friends and the patience of my family, I will make it.

Susan Thayn, LPN

I took my boards on Wednesday, May 1 at 0800. I figured I better take it as soon as possible so I didn't get too much anxiety over the situation. There were three other girls with me from my class. Which was actually a surprise. Not that I didn't want them there but that I thought all of out times to take the test would be different. Anyways, it is a procedure when you first get in, fingerprint, two pages of what you can't do, picture, phone in a bag, stuff in a locker, Whew, I mean if I wasn't anxious before now I am! Let me tell you, you can't even wear your own watch! So I finally get in there and I'm sat at the perfect spot, ear plugs in and I'm ready... Oop wait, no you have a tutorial first. WHAT, C'mon! OKAY tutorial done, here we go, I got to number 84 and prayed "Please let this misery be over on this next question"... Boom I answered number 85 and pow... It shut off...... OH CRAP.......... COME BACK!!!! Next is waiting for 48 hours. There is nothing that can compare to the wait of whether or not your dreams are about to come true. NOTHING! At 11:20 pm, May 2, I tried again and.............Susan Thayn, LPN. My dreams came true. I have worked so hard for this and can't stop crying. I woke up everyone in my house to tell them. I feel so incredibly blessed.

LPN Test

Yep, I took the dreaded LPN test today. It was awful. Camille, Parker, and Kierstin were there as well. The process was interesting, no watch allowed, they would give you ear plugs, store your belongings in a locker, no allowed to write on the white board till after you finish the tutorial otherwise your test is over for "Brain Dumping", You have to raise you hand when you are done, break after 2 hours and you have 5 hours to take the test. You can have a minimum of 85 questions or a maximum of 205. My test was very hard. I heard so many people say how easy it was the nothing about that test was easy. I think I had 40% of it a select all that apply. Camille felt the same way. On top of it, I was the first one done. if you have ever been in a test center with me you know I never finish first so that has me freaked out even more. I haven't really told anybody. I don't want to have to tell too many people that I did't pass if in fact I don't pass. Now that waiting game is more excruciating than worry about taking the damn thing. I took over 900 questions on the UPrep trying to prepare, did it work, who knows, but on Friday I should know for sure if I am a nurse or not. The best thing about my day is Dea was next to me all day. Well minus when he went golfing with Destiney :-/. But I was glad to just be with him this morning. I will let you know when I know.... EEEKKKK

Graduation

The day of graduation was crazy. First and foremost we had to take the Pharm final. Can you imagine studying for a pharm test? Yea me either. All you can do is hope you pass. After we were done, some of us girls went to get a pedicure just to waste time. We were trying o desperately to relax but it was difficult to say the least. All we could fret over was what we got. Finally we got our grades, we knew we did well and we all jetted the heck out of school. UGH the last day wasn't very relaxing. I did treat myself and got my hair and make up done, Then went back home and hung out. I had the best surprise of my in-laws coming. This was huge for me to have my mother-in-law there. We get to the school and everyone looks fantastic. The graduation was an hour long. Carolyn was our speaker with Seriann and Alecia taking part in the entertainment. Lots of pictures were taken and the crowd was full of supporting friends and family. Callie pinned me, which as you know was such an honor for me. I can't describe that feeling but know it was amazing to have her there..To anyone out there reading my boring blog... I can't wait for the next part of this chapter to begin.. RN year baby, bring it on!!

Out of the shadows!

TOMORROW! TOMORROW is finally LPN graduation. I have feelings of utter aw. It's indescribable how I'm feeling. I am no sad that it's over, and anyone who has been through nursing school knows what I mean, but I am so proud of myself for how far I have come. My parents, in-laws, Kids, Hubby, and friends will be here to celebrate with me. At the best gift of all is, I asked Calle to Pin me. I was so nervous when I asked her. I thought she would think it's corny or that she'd make up an excuse that she was busy. But when I asked, she accepted without hesitation. I feel so honored to have her pin me, so incredibly honored! And thankful! Okay now on to even better news....... I was offered a job today as an LPN!!!!! Holy Moly!!! I never thought I would even work as an LPN getting to use this knowledge that I've gained but I got a very special call today. Guess what friends.... I did it. And thanks for letting me vent all my frustration here. I know the journey isn't over and I'll cry more But in 24 HRS we are done with the LPN year!!!!! WHOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

Don't get too excited...

I can't believe I have 6 more days of school of my PN year. There are feelings coming up inside of me that.. well are a bit surprising. I honestly feel as it gets closer that I might sabotage the whole thing and fail. I am nervous about actually doing REAL nursing stuff. It's so hard to put into words but all I know is this sinking feeling inside kinda sucks. Everybody at school has already changed there status to reflect RN students studying at Weber University, but me... I'm just not there. I still need to focus on getting through the next two weeks. The RN semester is crazy expensive and really wanted to not take out a loan, I already so much money and I just have other things I want to be able to purchase after I graduate, like a house. I have a few more days of studying left, so I better make this short cause today is one of em!