PN2

Soo.. Today was the first day of the second semester of LPN. It was good to see everyone again. Some changes were made to the curriculum, NO MORE CONCEPT MAPS!!! This is huge, major, and the best news all day! I do have to say that I'm glad I did at least one so I can experience what people said about it in previous semesters, but so incredibly thankful i don't have to do five of them. Something else I am excited for is Wendy Paul is our instructor. She taught the portion on fluid and electrolytes, and her style of teaching is right up my alley. She draws on the board for visual effect and uses examples for application purposes. I can't wait to take a test and see what I can do in her class. Today we started with a WAY more in-depth health assessment that I have to pass off on Friday. EEEK. On a side note, Destiney started drivers education today. My mom and I are on the same page before the semester even starts. I got the house cleaned and she will try to make sure it doesn't get out of hand so I don't have stress from the mess. So far so good. :)

The Next Chapter

Second semester of LPN starts on Monday. I cannot begin to tell you how happy I am and excited I am. This has been the longest 3 weeks ever.
You would think that I would just relish in my time off and not even think about school, but all I want to do is be in school. I don't need a 3 week break, maybe a week, but not 3 weeks. It is finally January! In May I will be a nurse! I have waited so long for this. I know this is all I write about but who cares, I'm excited.
On a side note, Bri and Callie both found out today that they are expecting a girl. I am so excited. Chloe is gonna be the best big sister ever.
Work is going good, tonight I'm in the nursery and had to assist with a circ, almost forgot what the heck I was doing.
New Years was a blast. Dea and I went to the Outlaw with Jenn and Daniel.
Dea has been so great lately. could not have married a better man! EVER.

PN 1 Semester

Today was the last day of this semester. I took my fundamentals final and really felt horrible about it, turns out I did better on it than I did on Lifespan. I passed this semester with 2 A's and a B+. I feel so damn relieved. Today has been emotional. I kept to myself. I didn't want to share my score or talk about someone else's test. The stress is overwhelming, and to try to make another person feel better doesn't help me to feel better so I just kept quiet. I don't want to be compared to you. Yes I am happy for you but being a nurse is about me.
Next semester I am going to study a lot more. I don't want to feel then like I do now. I want the confidence, and I don't believe it's healthy to doubt yourself all of the time.
Listen I have dreamed of this for forever, and I did it... I made it through my first semester of nursing school. GO ME!!

Death, Dying, Depression, and Suicide

Not the best title for my post but this is what I got to listen to for 7 hours on my very last day of actual class today. I'm sad, and thinking about personal stuff in my life that I really try to squish down most of the time. I realized today that this subject is so important in nursing. Most individuals think of healing people and helping people to get better but what about the latter? I really don't have a problem with death, but with that being said, it's hard for me to comfort others who are the family members. Death is sad and tragic and sucks. But I can't say that out loud. On a lighter note, today was my last day of actual class of my first LPN year. How surreal is that??? IT'S AMAZING, that's how it is. I feel incredibly blessed to be where I am. I can't wait for it to be January. Because when I say I'll be a nurse in May, and have my RN in Dec, it will that much closer. I'm living the dream, REALLY, I AM!!!

Friends

In nursing school the key to getting through is prioritizing. On day one, we were thrown so much at us that I had to sit and organize it all. I even color coded my schedule with my classes, test, quizes, labs, passoffs, and clinicals. It was CRAZY. Then next, I had to figure out how to handle learning. I had this misconception that nursing school was one long class...then it became three classes. That helped, okay I'm taking three classes. Next, when and how to study. I am actually still trying to figure this one out. The test in nursing school are like no other tests, and they test you to prepare you for NCLEX Boards. The point of this blog is to remind myself that my priority needs to be ME. BUT...DO you have any idea how dang hard it is to do. People are telling me to not worry about anything else but ME. So here is the new priortized list.. God, Me, School, Family, Friends. If I spend as much on studying as I do worrying about others then I would be acing nursing school.. (Callie, 2012)I'm gonna test this theory...Sorry Friends.. We will talk soon! Love you

Breaking down

We had the hardest test today, fluid and electrolytes. It doesn't matter how much I studied cause I obviously don;t the know info after my score. Here's the thing, It's freaking embarrassing. And I truely wish people would stop posting about theire grades, I know you are bragging about how well you do but you're killing my spirit. I'm done, I'm blocking all of you that post about your damn grades. I don't care and I find it pretty rude of you. ALso I'm done with Facebook for now. I can't deal with your crap let alone my own. I just need and want to be alone. YEP...MAJOR BREAKDOWN!!!

ARGGG...

Dang it! What is my problem. This week was not so stressful. I had a test Wednesday in postpartum, and because I either studied too much or my job got in the way, I got a rather low score. Everyone kept asking me questions and I think I helped them, but I didn't help myself at all. I need someething. But what? I'm going away this weekend, good or bad, I'm not sure but I have got to chill. I need to re-group. I need to be around my peeps and feel good about myself. I need my husband to be home taking care of the kids so I can study. You have no idea how hard it is to tune out all the noises in my house. Jeff has his iphone radio on, the girls are playing, Brandon has two televisions on, and Destiney wants to talk about anything and everything. AHHHHH.... My mind is racing. Why do they have to be off school??? J/K Can someone just put a tube in me and feed me all the info I need? K thanks bye