"Hissie Fit"

Never underestimate the power of a "Hissie Fit"

Life is all about give and take. But some issues cannot be compromised. When the situation calls for drastic and dramatic measures, you have to draw a line in the sand, climb up on a soapbox, and protect the hill you are willing to die on.

It's not easy...anything worth fighting for never is. But the most noble thing you can do is stand up for what is right, no matter what the cost.

The problem is your voice can drown amid the roar of the masses. Once in a while you have to stomp your feet, scream at the top of your lungs, and throw a few lightening bolts to be heard.

Never underestimate the power of a "Hissie Fit."

Mountain Ridge

Welp, this is basically my last week working for Mountain Ridge.
Such bitter sweet...

I am looking forward to the next chapter, but this chapter will never be closed for me. MR is where I've learned to be humble, accountable, achieve, and strive.

My residents speak for themselves, they are so wonderful. I can tell you who most everyone is, where they live and what their routine is. I love the feeling of knowing I can make a person feel secure, just by being confident in myself in the job I know how to do.

MR is about the people I work with...The staff is full of many personalities, and no I havent gotten along with everybody, but there are days I can't wait to go to work. The people I work with are exceptional individuals...

The people I work for, is a powerful team... They continue to support us each day. They are there for the staff, ready to jump in and help at anytime, no matter what their title. The director of most of us aides has personally come in and been an aide on the floor, a med tech, a sounding board and a friend any time we need her. Our exectutive director will help serve in the kitchen if their short handed. And our nurse is always willing to answer those questions that I have just forgotten because I'm not a nursing student yet. She allows me to interrupt her anytime, never making me feel like her time is too good.

I love MR. I need to go and experience new things and that's what I'm doing but I can see myself making a home there.

Thank you Mountain Ridge for making a great CNA out of me! Coulda never done it without cha!

Contains Personal Content

Ok, So I am going to put myself out there for you to read, my family, my friends, and whoever.

I cannot be affraid of what you may read may hurt you because that is never my intention. But I have feelings too, and I like to write about things. Good, bad, or indifferent.

If you read my blog, please consider that you are just getting to know me. Who I am, and things I feel and think. I'm intitled.

So again, love me for me...
I am who I am!
K thanks bye

July Fever

OMG!!!
I know I havent blogged in months...sorry for all my non-readers, but I actually didn't want to complain. So many ups and downs. I just needed to deal on my own.

But let me tell you now...

My Mom found a job and is looking to her future. Jeff finished 10th grade with honors and starting his junior year he sill take 12 credits of college and attend high school. I told him that if he graduates with good grades for high school and his associates of general education, I will pay for him to go on a school cruise. I will pay for everything, including play money. He went to Washington for 3 weeks and got paid for his work with Aunt Elaine, I let him buy Selena Gomez concert tickets. He is so excited.
Destiney has been doing great since school got out. I feel like all the pressure is off of both of us. She is at her dads and dealing with a few anxiets there.

So my big news...I got a job at McKay Dee Hospital...working Joint and Spine. Let me yell out...I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!

Next...I received another letter reguarding my application into the Nursing Program at DATC...
Dear Susan,
We are pleased to inform you that you have been accepted into our practial Nursing program as an alternate candidate........OMG..How much can I take?

My dreams are coming true, Jehovah is still holding my hand!

Thanks for all who stand by me and love me and support me and most of all...encouarage me, build me up and stand by me as I climb my way to the top of MY ladder...

Pregnancy Fever

Anyone who truely knows me, knows I sometimes get the fever...Pregnancy fever.

And I have it again.

Now listen, before you go thinking something mean, my dog is pregnant, my boss is pregnant, and two of my close friends are pregnant, and one person from work just had a baby this past Friday, a girl. Her name is Sophia.

I feel left out, anxious, jealous, I feel that I am missing out on the joy of it. I hate being envious of others...ugh.

My hubby had his tubes tied 5 years ago, so there is no chance. and really my life is not set up for an infant. My mother in law has always said she saw us with 6 kids, but hell I never even saw myself with 5 kids.
When I was 19 and had Jeff I knew I was screwed. I knew that being pregnant waa going to be an inner battle of mine, I knew if I didn't work in Labor and Delivery that I would have more kids than I knew what to do with...But I still love it.

I'm tired og being made fun of because I make friends with every pregnant person I know. The joy I experience in the delivery room is as exciting for me as it is for the parents...and face it people, I'm damn good at being a labor coach, I know a lot too.

I've thought about being a doula but I needed more, hence being a nurse. I need to be in a hospital, I need to help moms bring healthy babies in this world.

I wish Dea would grant me the wish to be a surragate for just one couple. It's not about the money, I have always wanted to do that for somebody. I have a friend who didn't conceive for years, adopted 6 kids. Then one day her and her husband decided to give it a go. She tried insemination 3 times. She got pregnant all 3 times.
The first time she miscarried.
Second time, the baby was born at 21 weeks and 6 days gestation.. Her name is Isabel Susan, she weighed 13 oz. and was 9 3/4 inches long. She had beautiful black hair like her mama, She cried, pooped, slept, showed her criver lip, and died all in 3 hours.
The 3rd time gave us her son, who is my god-son. He is the most precious being on this earth aside from my own children.
My friend inspires me to be a surragate.

I hope the next 9 months goes by super fast...

Assoicaiate of General Studies

I am so frustraated with school.
Today I went and met with my advisor to get signed off for my associates of health science. But day before yesterday I looked at my Cat Tracks and it said I still needed 3 more classes. WTH? No one told me this at all and if this was the case why wasn't I told.
So now I have to forego my associates of health science and get my associates of general studies. I have worked sooo hard for the past two years, why in general studies? I should be happy and I guess I kinda am but I'm not very excited. I do feel relieved that at least I have something to show for what I've been doing for two years straight with only 10 day breaks, but yet disappointment urkes in the background.

If I get my degree in gen ed then that gives my two points for the nursing program, if I apply early and re-take anatomy I will make it into the alternate pool. HEY, AT LEAST ITS A POOL!

If you WANT Rainbows...You gotta have Rain

In a perfect world, everything would always go right. There would be no disappointments or trials, and life would be filled with only sweet, warm, and fuzzy feelings.

But how would we know if things were good if we had no comparison?
Would we recongnize the blessings in our lives without having the opposite to compasre them to?
Without the darkness, would we appreciate the light?

Seems to me if we want rainbows, we gotta have rain. The trick is to pull ourselves up by our bootstraps and go out and look for puddles to play in, reconginze the temptest for what it is and train ourselves to look for the good in every situation. By overcoming our adversity, we find the joy in everything.

So go on, go play in the rain. :)